I am calling it Octopus Brain.
It's when you are tuned in to every chapter in your manuscript. When you have all the characters, subplots, and revision notes carefully balanced in your mind, even the ones you're planning to cut. And when you make an edit to a particular scene, you instantly know which other scenes will be affected by that change. It's wonderful. I have a tentacle on all the different pieces and--for the most part--none of them are getting away from me. I feel like all the synapses are firing and I'm holding the whole novel in my consciousness.
However, I feel a kind of writerly athleticism. I feel scrappy and ready to make things happen. I'm at peace with the fact that it's a long process (for me) and I am ready to work. My intellect is fully engaged, but I'm loose, I'm in the flow. I have my right brain and left brain working together. It's a dream come true!
Did anyone see Minority Report? Remember the scene where Tom Cruise is moving all those images around on the clear glass screen with his fancy hi-tech gloves? He moves them faster and faster, getting rid of some, pulling some together, getting closer to an answer--a conclusion. Here's hoping my Octopus Brain will keep firing on all cylinders until I find my own. I want it to be a conclusion that rings true and feels satisfying. I think I can do it!
How does it work for you? Is it easy for you to hold long manuscripts in your head? Or are you like me, and you need months of marinating in your book before you can take it where it needs to go? I love hearing about everyone's process. Cheers!