Wednesday, November 30, 2011
Why I suck at everything right now
As you know, I just moved across the country. It would be an understatement to say that it has been a MAJOR stress on our whole family. We're reinventing the wheel, basically. Trying to find our way around a new town, finding new doctors, classes, restaurants, stores, and everything else. Finding new rhythms, new friends, new ways of doing things. Instead of moving forward with goals like: writing a novel, teaching the kids French, and making homemade holiday gifts... we're pretty much just coping. We're helping the kids with all the changes, and making time to process it ourselves. It's hard, but necessary.
So... pretty much everything else has gone to hell in a hand-basket! I'm trying to be satisfied with making sure everyone eats, is relatively clean, and has something useful to do every day. Beyond that, I suck at everything: writing, blogging, exercising...
I didn't do NaNoWriMo. I had such grand visions for myself! But I realized a few days into November that I needed to keep my focus on my family. I felt like this wonderful magic train was racing by... I could feel the wind it was generating, and hear some of the music and laughing voices inside, but I just couldn't get on it. Not this year.
But it's OK! The beauty is that I know I did the right thing. And I am slowly getting my groove back. We are building a new life, and that takes time. In addition to all the challenges, there have already been lots of blessings: my husband loves his new job. We love our new home and our new neighbors. Everyone is healthy. And the sun is shining today!
Anyone else out there going through big transitions? If you are, hang in there. Know that you have my compassion. I'm trusting that all this will be a catalyst for growth and positive changes.
Take care, everybody! I'll check in again soon.